Is it weird?

So I was having period symptoms but my period never came...went to the doctor and BOOM!! Im pregnant. My bf and I had sex like a week before my period was supposed to start so I know I’m probably around 4weeks. I made an appointment to get the termination pill because I’m just not ready to have a kid at this stage in my life. Is it weird that I feel both guilty and slightly relieved? I mean I do want kids one day just not today, but I still feel kinda “meh 😐”