Hate to say this... kinda long sorry

Hate to say this but I’m having a hard time wanting this pregnancy. At this point I don’t want the baby I do nothing but throw up all day anything and everything i eat or drink even when I don’t eat i throw up which is draining me. I just had a baby she is 10 months old when I found out I was pregnant it was right before she turned 9 months (3 weeks when i found out) My whole pregnancy with her it was the same thing up until I had her. I was happy and over joyed with her after multiple mc’s I was willing to deal with it. Then The first time I have sex after my daughter I’m pregnant 😫 wasn’t happy but came around to having two kids under 2 but then 6 weeks hit just like when I was pregnant with her and the throwing up started and I don’t wanna deal with it now! I have my baby I wanted two but with previous mc if I could just have 1 I was fine with that. I feel a little selfish for saying I don’t want this baby because at one point in time I thought I would never have kids. But I’m drained I don’t wanna go through throwing up the way I do to the end of my pregnancy again. I’m sorry I just had to rant. I wanna sit and cry all day I starve and have to throw up I eat and throw up and then starve again. No medication they have given me helped but none helped with my daughter either idk what to do. Then the migraines i get from the throwing up real bad 😫😫😫😫I’m going to er early in the morning so I can get some fluids.