I tried to get pregnant with my ex fiancé for 5 years. We had found out he had fertility issues and that’s why we were having trouble. Towards the end of our relationship it finally happened, only for me to miscarry after our break up due to extreme stress.

With my current boyfriend that I’ve been with for 2 years, we decided we wanted to have a baby right away. We got pregnant shortly after we started dating with an ectopic pregnancy. I didn’t have to have any surgery, just took methotrexate. They said I shouldn’t have any issues trying to get pregnant again afterwards. We’ve been trying ever since then and it hasn’t happened, so I finally went to my OBGYN. She drew blood to see if I’m ovulating like I should be and it turned out I’m not. So she recommended me to start Clomid. I told my boyfriend this meant we had to be serious about having sex on certain days if I start taking this medication otherwise there’s no point and that kind of landed us in an argument. I think even though he’s always expressed he wants us to have a baby, I know he gets stressed about trying so hard, like any of us do. So I let it go for a month. Finally I brought it up again last night trying to figure out if we can get on the same page about things, and it came out that he isn’t sure about me taking Clomid or doesn’t exactly care for me to because it can increase our risk of having multiples.....I was like, “well you know I’m probably not going to have a chance of having a baby without this medicine?” And it just didn’t go well, it was just a bad argument.

So, I really never will be a mother. I’ve kind of been slowly coming to terms with that for awhile now and last night pretty much confirmed. It just isn’t meant to be for me.