I just need to rant.

Jillian

i love my mother to death, but she has issues such as depression and maybe even bipolar disorder. And my dad doesn’t show that he loves her. He did meth for a while but he’s clean now. But during that time he lied about what he was doing and where he was going and even got another girls number and talked to her for a bit. My parents have been married for years and this isn’t the first time something like this happened. But my mother just doesn’t know how to handle her feelings. She cries and cries and she tells me how much she wants to die because how he makes her feel. I’ve talked to her and listen to her about how she feels but it’s the same thing over and over again about how my dad acts. She’s gotten helped after she tried to kill herself as a poor attempt to get my dad’s attention. that didn’t help at all. But it’s been months and shes still acting this way. I don’t know what to do. The only thing she focus on is my dad and what he’s doing and he doesn’t even give her the time of day. And she doesn’t realize that he doesn’t wanna be with her. It literally breaks my heart over and over again watching her have these breakdowns every single day. I can’t take this much longer and i feel so bad for saying that. I love my mother, unconditionally. She’s raised me my whole life while my father worked all the time. And i hate seeing her like this. But it’s draining me. And i feel guilty for it.