Trigger warning PLEASE HELP.

So I’ve recently had 2 back to back miscarriages that I didn’t even have a cycle in between . I’ve now had my first cycle 2 weeks ago since. Our dr told us to wait a cycle and we have the go ahead to start trying again. We talked about it and decided to try after July because we’re taking our daughter to Disneyland, sixflags, and universal studios . But idk why I took a ovulation test and it was positive and now I’m seriously considering saying fuck it and trying but idk. I’m torn and I’ve been crying about it everyday for the past 3 days even before I took the ovulation test. I know ultimately it’s my choice but what would you do if you were in my shoes ?