THIS DOES NOT FEEL REAL

I have 3 living children, with the youngest being a rainbow after 3 consecutive losses. We decided to try for one more and miscarried again this past December. My cycles have been CRAZY since then - I’m talking 48+ days in between. According to this app I still have 9 days until my expected period but I went to lunch today with my coworkers and my friend got salmon and I swear I almost got sick.... stopped at Walmart for a first response and decided to take it in the bathroom, thinking for sure it would be negative. NOPE. Popped up right away!!!! Took two more just to make sure 🙏🏻😭 I’m in shock! No idea how far along I am though I feel like this is really strong for being 9 days away from AF!