Feeling really alone😔💔

I’m sorry if this post wind up really long but I really need someone to take to and advice.

I was supposed to go to an event with my family today but the way my emotions are right now. I didn’t want to break down and cry in front of them. I feel like my bf doesn’t love me as much as he says he does. Before he would always hit me up and check up on me me to see how I was doing or to see if I was doing okay. Also we would always be making plans and take about the baby on the way ( I am almost 21 weeks pregnant and we are currently not physically together right now because of living problems at the time.)

Now it seems like seems like he never wants to video chat me unless I tell him it’s super important. And when I suggest it he would either make an excuse or not text me all together until hours later. He texts me hours at a time and when he finally does either it’s about something sexual or he wants me to send him pics. Before I didn’t mind doing it since we are far away from each other and it is something we both enjoy doing together. But now I feel so used and taken advantage of sometimes. I feel like the only time he wants to talk to me is about us having sex or him wanting a pic out of me.

I’m supposed to be his girlfriend and we have a baby on the way, but at the same time I feel like there’s someone else in the picture and I’m just the other woman. I have no one to take to about how I feel and what I am going through💔.

He promised me there is and won’t be anyone else in the picture but yet finding out this morning through SC he wasn’t even home last night or this morning. He was at somebody else’s house. I really don’t want to believe that he was at another woman’s house but knowing something happened between him and another woman he works with months before just makes my trust go down even more. And for the fact that he still talks to her till this day makes me even feel worse. He says they are just friends but as much as he talk and see’s her more than me when I was around him makes me feel like he’s not telling the full truth.

I’ve been faithful and doing everything thing I can to be the best girlfriend I can be but I deeply feel like I’m not getting the same energy in return😢💔. I’m trying so hard to make things work because I do still love him, but him acting like I don’t matter as much or not wanting to talk to me is really hurting me inside. I still haven’t heard from him all morning and this afternoon and usually he always texts me during the day to see how I am doing.

I’m scared to even tell him how I feel because whenever I do he starts disappearing and become distant. I don’t know what to do anymore😞💔. I’m almost 21 weeks pregnant and I’m going through most of this pregnancy by myself since we aren’t physically together. I’m so scared that everything is going to fall apart.