I got pregnant and had an abortion the day I hit 8 weeks. It’s now been 5 days since the abortion and it’s been one of the most difficult things I’ve ever gone through. Getting the abortion itself wasn’t a difficult decision, I know I’m not fit to be a mother at this moment. But that doesn’t take away from the pain it caused to go through with it. I’ve felt so empty and alone since. The father wanted me to just get it over with. He doesn’t understand how painful it is to go through with something so difficult. I noticed once I got the abortion that he became more and more distant. He lives in Florida and I live in New Jersey so for our relationship to work we need to be extra communicative. Well he started texting me less and less, wouldn’t answer my phone calls, basically just barely spoke to me at all. I found it very weird but he just kept telling me that he had family over and that he’s just been extremely busy with them. But not to worry bc he cares and he’s here for me and blah blah blah. So last night while he’s ignoring me, he posts a video of him out. I see in the corner a girl that looks familiar. I go to his ex’s page and turns out that she is currently staying at his house in Florida. Just a week after I came back from visiting him down there. Just a few days after I JUST aborted his child. I call him out on it, text him the pictures I saw that she posted at his house and he tells me that he just didn’t want to tell me because I was already going through enough and he didn’t want to make it anymore difficult on me. Mind you every time I’d ask him why he was distancing himself he’d tell me I was crazy. Every time I asked if he really still wanted to continue things between us he made it seem like I was insane for questioning him. Telling me to give him time and he’d prove himself to me. And now he’s continuing his days out there with her like nothing happened. Meanwhile I’m home, mourning this process I just went through, depressed and alone. And to top it all off, I was fired from my job the day I got my abortion. So everything just keeps getting worse and worse and I feel so alone going through all this.