So completely heartbroken

S!

This was my first pregnancy. I would have been 10 weeks tomorrow. These past 5 days have been a complete nightmare and I’m not sure how I’m going to get through this.

Monday was my first ultrasound appointment. I was 9 weeks and 2 days. I was so nervous for that appointment. I kept feeling like something was going to happen... but I’m a worrier by nature. During my appointment, the baby was only measuring at 6 weeks. But my sac was measuring at 8. My baby had no heartbeat.

I was devastated. My world stopped turning in an instant. I was (and am) so mad at my body because for 3 weeks I have felt very pregnant. My body had no idea... and for three weeks I was prepping for my little love. My awaited appointment ended with scheduling a d&c for this past Wednesday. They drew my blood during my appointment Monday, so I couldn’t help but ask my OB what my levels were on Wednesday. My hcg levels came back to over 101 thousand. My body still, had no idea.

I’ve been a complete wreck... this emotional rollercoaster has not slowed down. I feel like no one understands my heartache. My boyfriend especially. Because to me, it was a baby. It was my baby. Not just tissue or an embryo. It was a baby and it mattered. He has been so strong through it and I can’t tell if hes being that way for me, or if it’s because it really didn’t hit him that hard. I feel like I’m the only one grieving.

Glow Resources

Let’s Glow

Glow is here for you on your path to pregnancy

Glow helps you navigate your fertility journey with smart tools, personalized insights, and guidance from medical experts who understand what matters most.

25+ million

Users

4.8 stars

200k+ app ratings

20+

Medical advisors