Masterbating / squirting ?

When i masterbate solo (only using my hands) no toys or anything I start to feel good but then sort of like a bit painful pressure like my vagina or clit is full or something 🤣🤣

Does that mean I’m to the point where I’m gonna climax or squirt or something ???

I stop too soon because I don’t really feel joy out of it anymore mid process and mostly feel disgusted 😩😩😩💀💀💀

I’m never had actual sex so I wouldn’t know.

Idk if this makes any sense 🤣😅