Don’t have any idea why

I can’t handle not having my little one in her crib next to me she’s 3 months. And i told her dad to take her next door. I didn’t want to he’s worried that i won’t let her out of my sight and temporarily don’t like anyone that holds her for longer than 5 minutes or walks away from me when they’re holding her. Until i have her back in my arms. Mind you these are grand parents great grand parents aunts and uncles.

Even leaving her with her dad so i can go to the grocery store fills me with anxiety. And now the concern on his end is I’m going to effect my daughter and her ability to have a extended family,meaning beyond her dad and i.

So he took her next door and i cried for two straight hours. The deep my hearts been torn out cries. I don’t know why. I know she’s safe, she’s not more then 50ft away. But yet i cried, and then avoided the family in that house and spent the rest of the evening with my baby.

I have a appointment to talk to someone about my feelings on Wednesday. But i still don’t know why i panic when she isn’t in the same house as me and why there’s so much anger towards anyone who try’s to be in her life. I just needed to put it in the universe to try and get some of the weight off.

If you stuck it out and read this i hope you accept my sincerest thank you.