I have a two years old and I'm expecting baby number two and I always feel so guilty when buying stuff for the new baby. I'm always thinking that it's unfair that my son didn't get to wear those clothes or play with those toys. With my son I was hospitalised until week 30 due to hyperemesis gravidarum, and then again at week 32 for preeclampsia. Had to be induced at 36 weeks. Due to all these complications I never let myself to be happy and enjoy the fact that I was pregnant and we never had the chance to get anything for our son. We honestly didn't buy him a single thing (mother in law got us everything, bless her!) until he was older, like at least six months, because that's when my fear of losing him disappeared. I was so convinced all the time with him that something would go wrong so I was so scared to buy anything. With this baby I have decided to only be happy and since I don't have as severe health problems we've also been able to buy stuff and kind of compensate for what we missed out on. It makes me feel guilty. It also makes me feel bad that this baby gets "better" stuff than my son. How do I deal with this?