Defeated

I had to take a plan B today. The condom broke and we’re not sure if the precum/cum that was in the condom went inside of me. But as soon as we found out he basically freaked out and drove us right to the store to make me take a plan b. I have nothing against them and there is no way I’m ready to have a baby. Yet I feel extremely sad. I was always against the long term side of effects that plan b has on your body. I had done prior research and basically found out it isn’t good for your hormones and what not. But with all that aside. I feel extremely sad, and when he dropped me home I went to my best friends house and cried. I’m not sure why but it just felt good. It sucks feeling like this. Has anyone else had to take a plan b before?