not trying, but not NOT trying

Sadie

ok so my SO has one 4yo, he’s 29 i’m 21, we’re both in recovery. he always talks about how he wants another baby soon but he doesn’t want me pregnant this young (he thinks i’ll resent him and blah blah blah). anyway we only have unprotected sex and after this last period he has came in me almost every time. so my peak ovulation day was the 22nd but the window started on the 17th. my cycles a bit irregular and my body has different symptoms seemingly every month for everything. on the night of the 13th/morning of the 14th he came in me 3 times. every month i freak myself out about pregnancy (i want to be pregnant). this month though i’ve noticed weirder things. i cramp, not awful but pretty bad when i’m in bed. i’ve been having really really bad nausea, like almost throwing up every morning, noticeable heartburn, and tonight just awful headaches. my discharge has been this weird slippery consistency. every month i get excited because i feel like i have symptoms but for some reason this month it feels.. real. i’ve been too scared to tell ANYONE about them, including him. i know i’m only 8 dpo (7 days until period), i just want to know. i’m getting really excited and i’m trying not to build it up in my head. i took an equate test the other night, 9 days before period, so obviously it was negative. does anyone know what tests are the most sensitive and most quick to pick it up? if they all day negative i won’t believe it until my period starts, but i just have this feeling that it’s our month.