I always mess things up... RANT

Miscarriage in Feb. At 8 weeks..

I had a positive test on Tuesday. I was going to wait until Father's Day to tell my husband and to make it special for him. I was going to get an ultrasound a few days before Father's day, and get him a card with a ultrasound picture in it.  Last night, we were at my cousin's baseball game and I'd been very emotional and upset. My husband asked, “Why have you been so emotional lately? What's wrong?”, all I said was, “I can't tell you right now..” My husband said, “why are you pregnant?”  Then I had to tell my husband about taking a test. I told him how I wanted to surprise him. I expected him to be happy...but he wasn't. He was angry.. He said, “I wanted to be there when you took the test. I hate Father's day and you know that! I wouldn't be surprised.. I'd be happy if you'd just had me there for the test!”  I had tried to explain to him that it was special for me to be able to do something for him. My husband doesn't enjoy Father's Day because he hasn't been able to have his kids from his previous marriage on Father's Day yet.

“It's not special! Apparently you're going to do everything in this pregnancy by yourself and you apparently don't care if I'm involved in this or not! Whatever!” Then he stormed off.

 I know I should have let him be there for the test I just wanted to do something nice for my husband. I thought he wouldn't mind.

  Am I not supposed to be hurt by this? Am I in the wrong?

I guess I'm doing this on my own...