How hard is it really

To go back to work after your maternity leave is up? I’m barley 4 mos along but am already dreading it lol. I’ve looked into being a stay at home mom and crunched some numbers a little bit but realistically I’ll have to go back, mainly bc that’s the only way we’ll have any health insurance. Even if I wasn’t working my husband still makes ‘too much’ to qualify for Medicare or anything like that. So I just want to hear some of your stories about going back to work after having a baby. And ladies I kindly ask that no one comments anything like ‘well I’m a stay at home mom so...’. That’s wonderful for you but it’s really not what I’m looking for at the moment. Thanks!