I'm so close to quitting 😭

So, I exclusively pump and my nipples are chapped, cracked, tender and sore. My son is 2 months old now and I'm so close to giving up. It hurts so friggin bad atm. Not all the time when I pump but ugh. breastfeeding just didn't work because I was getting frustrated because my boobs are huge and he was getting frustrated so we switched to the bottle early on. I just don't know what to do and he wants to be held/near me so when I'm trying to pump he's wailing and ufjrjrjrjrmr 😭😭😭 Part of me wants to try taking up nursing again but I love the freedom that the bottle provides and just... y'all I don't know what to do. I almost wish my supply would dry up so I would have to use formula..