hate my mom and dad

my mom dad ne er raised me and everytime i ask my mom can we visit so we can go flea market next door she always put her man first been lik that for years i ask her everytime she off she always make excuses up.. these few months got to where she wont wont us around period she even treat my grandma same way and my step sister always got be her man there.. we cant come at all im so sick of her. my dad mever want nun do with his grandkids either /( its sad situation... so sick of them. my dad sunday night let my chihuahua out and my dog hasnt bene back since hes out there somewhere idk where :( i miss him dearly we lost two dogs three weeks ago they had be put down i told him befroe he came in the dog was in livin eoom with his dog so he wouldnt alone and he didnt listen im so mad at him all time we dont get along anyways never did... they are assholes...