Late period

I honestly don't know if I am pregnant. I have a lot of the symptoms like nausea, cramps, backpain if I sit or lay a certain way, mood swings, and having a runny nose and watery eyes. But im afraid to take the test. I am ready to have a baby but i have a hard time getting pregnant. So I have a this mind set the im not meant to have a baby so please give me a better reason why i feel this way.

An update on everything:

I have not taken a test cuz i feel like it not important so i have decided to forget about it and move on. There is not point in hoping if its never goin to happen so until it happens thats when I'll worry bout it but thanks guys