Crying need help

Ladies,

As I write this I’m a sobbing mess on the floor. I believe to have PCOS. I started my 1st round of Femara 2.5mg last month (my birthday month) and felt it was going to work, in fact I even had my first +opk (CD20), went in for progesterone yesterday (CD28). This past week I had vomiting and diarrhea. I felt symptoms and thought maybe implantation!

Well this morning AF came (CD 29). My AF is never on time, I usually have 35+ cycles. I’m devestated. I’m broken. I feel my body is useless. I hate myself. I truly hate my body right now. I hate that my body isn’t working. I am so scared. Does anybody have words for me? My husband and I want kids so badly and have been trying for 1.5+ years.