I need help: how do I convince the guy I love I’m not a freak???

So I’ve been a little for close to two years; I don’t dress like it in public, and I hide my little side from everyone, even my parents. Recently, I told my boyfriend of 6 months about it, because I felt like he should know. At first, he was fine with it, but then he made the ultimate mistake of looking on the internet to find more about it. Now he thinks it’s just a weird sex thing, and that I’m weird and freaky (I’m more of a tame little, but I do like stuff like sippy cups and binkies and stuff.) now he avoids the topic altogether and won’t acknowledge it at all.

How do I convince him I’m not a freak?😢

Please help!

Ps....I’m not a freak, right? :(