I give up

I absolutely give up. I’m depressed, sad, hurt, everything... today I took a test and I swore it had a faint line. Posted the photo on here and got so many people saying positive. So I was beyond excited. Thinking of ways to tell my significant other. Middle of day started to have some small cramps.. I thought to myself no way. Well I was wrong.. period came and I’m so emotional. I keep telling myself to delete the app and just stop tracking. I just want this so bad, and to get my hopes up and now they just came crashing down.. so here I am no BFP.