So scared to say anything

So I just took this... I had a cycle April 15. I am soooo scared I have. Been pregnant 3 boys ages 1, 3(sept) and 7(nov) and a little girl that is in heaven!! ALL high risk pregnancies... tomorrow I find out if I will end up keepping my Niece 1(Aug) I am her foster mom right now... I do not know what to do there is going to be soo much hate from my family about this... How do I tell them?!?! Huband is wanting another girl