Breastfeeding

My daughter will be 3 weeks old on Tuesday and it’s been kind of a rough road. She got sick after she was born and lost almost a pound so her pediatrician decided to supplement formula to help her gain. I was upset because I wasn’t able to exclusively breastfeed. However, that being said, she has no nipple confusion. She takes a binky, bottle, and will still latch and for that I’m super thankful. Because of supplementing, I have an over abundance of breast milk in my freezer (over 200 ounces) and she is no longer taking formula. My milk supply seems like it’s slowing down. I started taking fenugreek, bought lactation cookies, drink body armory (I heard those help), and am drinking more water than I ever have. I’m slowly losing hope. I don’t want to dry up.

When I had my son (November 2013), I wasn’t able to breastfeed and tried so hard to pump. I was young and didn’t know what the hell I was doing. I felt like I couldn’t do the one thing I was supposed to be able to do as a mother.

I also feel like my little one is eating so much and she’s still always hungry. She eats anywhere from 2-4 ounces, sometimes more and she’ll eat every two hours. I feed on demand. We’re finally over her birth weight so I’m super happy about that.

Sorry about the rambling but I really need some help. Help me feel like I’m not a shit mom. I’m feeling super defeated..