Overthinking everything!!

I’m 22 weeks and I’m overthinking . I feel flutters n her leg on my ribs because it’s painful but I don’t feel kicks and I’m freaking out that she’s not okay because I heard other stories of people already seeing outside movements . Also I feel like I look fat n not pregnant. My stomach is soft.It doesn’t poke or like others. I feel like overthinking everything is this all normal to not feel pregnant somedays I just don’t want nothing to be wrong I went at 18 weeks n she was perfect but now I feel like unless I see her again I feel like something wrong. I don’t qualify for insurance so all my visit are out of pocket and my boyfriend lost his job so I haven’t gone since end of April because I have no money.