I NEED HELP/ADVICE

My son is with his dad for 2 weeks for summer visitation and I’m losing it. My anxiety is so bad, I’m constantly scared that he’s hurt and I don’t know about it or that something terrible will happen and I won’t be there to protect him. It’s getting bad. Yesterday is saw a plane in the sky and started freaking out because there’s a small possibility that a plane could crash into our babysitters house. Even though I KNOW that it’s VERY VERY unlikely to happen, I had to pull over because I couldn’t breathe. My depression is getting worse too. I thought that with him with his Dad I would have time to deep clean my house, declutter, and do home projects but I’ve had no energy at all. I’ll come home, sit on the couch and binge watch Supernatural. Then I feel bad about myself because I’m being lazy and haven’t gotten anything done, but I still won’t hardly do anything. I’ll start but give up 5 minutes in and go to bed. I’ve tried CBD oil to help with my anxiety, but it’s not working anymore. Idk what to do.