Sex life in need of help.

Okay so I used to have a great sex life and now after the baby it SUCKS. (9 months pp)

before the baby I’d do everything and I’d initiate sex and give blow jobs and make out and all the good stuff.

When I was pregnant my sex drive just almost completely fell off the cliff. We literally didn’t have any kind of sexual interaction for MONTHS and after the six week wait we still didn’t do anything for another month after baby was born. I am now to embarrassed to initiate anything, I’m embarrassed of my body, I don’t like to make out anymore because I literally just think it’s gross and he likes to put his tongue all the way into the back of my throat and I just don’t even know what I’m doing, my sex drive is sub par to say the least, I haven’t given him head in over a month because I just really don’t know what I’m doing anymore and I think I suck at it so I’m embarrassed of myself, I honestly have never had any idea on how to give a hand job so that’s not even a possibility.

What do I do!? How do I get over being so embarrassed of myself and being to embarrassed to even try? I definitely don’t feel sexy, I send him “sexy” pictures at least a couple times a week at least tho.

I feel so depressed about this. I just want to please him and I feel like my anxiety just completely ruins everything. I can’t get into sex at all because I’m so heavily over thinking things. I can’t even orgasm anymore with him because I just can’t get into it. 😭😭😭😭.

Please help me

(Btw I’m 22 so I feel like I should be at my prime in sex but I’m just not)