Am I selfish?

So in the past year I’ve been really depressed and was hospitalized 3 times and diagnosed with Bipolar-2. Since then I’ve been educating myself with mental illness and trying to learn coping skills and finding the right meds. During all this I found out If you have bipolar your children has a chance of having it and if I get pregnant I would have to get off of my medications and there would be a possible chance of me becoming depressed again.

Me and my mom were talking and she asked when I am going to have children and I told her I’m not planning on having any kids. I used to dream of having lots of children but that all changed since I’ve been diagnosed. Right now at this moment of my life I feel like I can barely take care of myself. At the moment I can’t go back to work because I have to much anxiety. She made me feel so bad and selfish because of it though. Am i being selfish?