I was born a girl (obviously or I wouldn’t be on here tracking my crimson wave). I always considered myself “normal”, straight, nothing “wrong” with me until recently. Its always been in the back of my mind since I was about 14, but I only recently confronted my ideals of gender. Sometimes I want to be a boy. I don’t mean having convenience or just to try, I mean that if some omnipotent god came down and told me he’d change my physical biology to match a mans, change my voice, my hair, my pronouns, how every person in my life viewed me, etc. to match a guys, I wouldn’t mind. In fact I’d like it permanently.

Although other times I also feel like a girl. I like being a girl. I like having wide hips and a full chest, I like dressing very feminine, I enjoy being called a woman, etc. This all leaves me super confused. Honestly I’m dealing with a lot of internalized oppression and negative feelings due to it. Is this normal, or am I just crazy?