Kinda stressing.

I use to be really big. With the right life choices I lost 65lbs which left mere at 279. I was eating clean up until i got pregnant and then adversions came and nausea was full force. I got pregnant Dec 2016 and grave birth in Sept 2017. My baby was two weeks early via scheduled C section. During my c section I went into cardiac arrest. Thankfully they were able to perform several things to start my heart. They put my body on ice I think to keep my brain from swelling. They didn't believe id pull out of it because I was unresponsive. My husband had faith that The Lord was gonna pull us through, and He did. Only after two days of fasting and prayer I was awake. No memory but awake. I was able to finally meet my baby. Fast forward I am 8 weeks 5 days. I was 316 when I got pregnant this time... As soon as I found out (3wks 5days)

I started eating better. At six weeks nausea all over again. Most food makes me sick at just the sound of it. I know I'm gaining and I'm stressing.