Post partum depression? FTM.

How do you know when you have post partum depression?

My sons 2 months old and the pregnancy was GREAT, my confidence while pregnant shot through the roof, after I had him the first 24 hours I was a little saddened at the fact that I would no longer feel him wiggle around in my belly. But then i felt okay.

I always wanted to hold him, snuggle him, give him so much love. But now two months later I dont even want to look at him. He cries I get instantly frustrated. I still take care of him. I dont have feelings of hurting either of us. I just dont want to look or hold him anymore. And when I get too overwhelmed (which seems to happen pretty fast now) I either pass him off to his father or lay him in his bed or swing.

I'm just not sure how I'm suppose to feel or who I would talk too or how to even bring it up.

I feel like such a bad mom because you're suppose to love your child not have them feel like a bourdon. Cause I know hes not.