I’m in high school and after prom me and my boyfriend had decided to have sex (it was the second time for us). We were in a car and he put a condom on and he had trouble getting it in right, so we kept repositioning. We finally got it right and it only lasted a couple minutes, but then when he was done I got really confused. He had finished and it was all over me (legs groin area). I asked him where the condom was and he told me he had taken it off. I didn’t know he had until it was too late. I was just kinda shocked and then I just kinda brushed it off because we were about to go to a party.

About a week after, I really realized what happened and I became very scared I could be pregnant because I had gotten off birth control. I wanted to talk to him about everything and the fact that if we were gonna have sex I wanted it to be safe and if I was to get pregnant what would we do. I started to talk to him about it (and the fact that taking the condom off was and is never ok without me knowing but I was trying to be nice about it because I thought there wasn’t a malicious intent behind it and it was rather just an honest mistake).

The next day after we had talked, he wanted to meet me before my last class and he then broke up with me because he said I was overreacting.

About a month later I thought I finally got my period. I bled for two days and it was very clotty and solid. I told my mom everything and she said that my body could have gotten ride of a potential fetus on its own so it wasn’t a big deal.

I was devastated that was even a possibility, I did everything in my power to have safe sex and he made that decision without me?? I was so hurt that I could’ve just had a child, that was already gone. I became so distraught and upset all the time and no one could understand what I was going through.

I had to tell my ex boyfriend and I facetimed him (the first the we talked since we broke up) and told him I wasn’t pregnant and I could have had a miscarriage and he just said he was glad I wasn’t pregnant and hung up. He was very high and the call was only around a minute.

I was so devastated that he didn’t care because I was so hurt that I could’ve lost a baby. I didn’t understand how he had no reaction to that information.

I’m feeling better but so hurt that I am a victim of sexual assault. I could have a little angel in heaven resulting from that. It’s so much to process and it’s disheartening but I want anyone out there to know that you are not alone! It gets better! you are worth so much to this world, an action a guy/girl did without your consent does not make you any less of the amazing person you are. Lots of love to everyone out there. I’m only 16 but if anyone needs anyone to talk to or a shoulder to cry on I’m here!❤️