In love and heartbroken at the same time

I can’t stop crying right now. Today I really realized how in love with my boyfriend I am and we’re both only 22 and we’re both in grad school so we don’t plan on settling down till we graduate. But I know I want him for the rest of my life and he feels the same. But I’m basically infertile and he knows this but I don’t think he realizes how I might never be able to carry his children ):

I don’t want to break up with him. But I want him to hate me enough so he could leave me because he has the potential to be the best dad one day and I won’t be able to give him that ): it just hurts