Being on a close friends wank bank?

So, I was out with some old work friends that I haven’t seen in almost a year since I moved jobs, one of which was my old work bestie, let’s call him Sam?

We’re all at this pub, there are some new faces so I’m making new friends and chatting away, and we start playing never have I ever.

One of the girls said “never have I ever masturbated over someone at this table”

Now there’s a couple couples at this table and they all drink but then Sam also drinks. I looked around the table, there are four girls there, one of which he met that night. So that narrows it down to three.

He won’t tell any of us who it is apart from this one girl Imogen, so immediately in my mind that counts her out because he’s usually quite shy.

So it’s me or one other girl.

He had a girlfriend the entire time we worked together so I kind of think not, but they’ve been broken up for six months now, but that would mean he would be thinking about me after not seeing me for months, and that makes me feel kind of weird.

I have no way of finding out if it actually was me or not, it’s a 50/50 chance that I’ve featured in his wank bank.

My friends are telling me to calm down, just take it as a compliment, move on. But I can’t!

I spend all this time trying to make myself more attractive and desirable, looking at makeup, clothes, videos on charisma and body language, its just this natural vanity and inclination to want to be wanted.

But the second I know or suspect it’s actually worked on someone I feel all weird and uncomfortable and shy and nervous.

So now I have this friend who I usually feel really comfortable around and now I struggle to look him in the eye without getting flustered and I don’t know what’s wrong with me!!

I am currently in a sexually active relationship and because of that I thought I had gotten over this whole frigidity but I’m not. Im generally a really confident person but it took me two years to get physically comfortable with my current boyfriend, what if it doesn’t work out and no other guy will have the patience for me to get comfortable with them?

Seriously panicking? It shouldn’t be a big deal 😭