Almost lost my baby and now I’m scared but my friend keeps chewing me out for being scared is she being a little harsh or is it me

So on Friday I was flight lifted to our states best ob hospital to have emergency surgery to have a cerclage placed cause after weeks almost months of telling my ob something was wrong I was contracting and them not listening they finally had to listen when my cervix open out and my water sac started falling out. When I arrived at the high risk hospital they told me they didn’t even know if I was able to get the surgery cause I was contracting and my water bag was hanging out too far and they had to make sure I didn’t have an infection first. I was put on bed rest for 24 hours in hopes my labor would stop but even if it did there was only like a 10% chance if they were able to operate that they could do it without accidentally breaking my water that was hanging out. That night they had people come in by us discussing funeral arrangements asking what we wanted done with the baby’s body if he didn’t make it and they had counselors getting us ready do loose him it was bad y’all. Then by some miracle the next morning not only was I not contracting but I had no infection meaning I could have the surgery and the most amazing thing if all my water sac had gone back in so I could safely have the surgery. But afterwards I started contracting and I’ve been doing so on and off for days. Every time I’ve started contracting I’ve asked for prayers that baby will be ok and my friend posted how I need to knock off being negative I told her she didn’t understand and she said this

Also I want to add I have on multiple occasions said how grateful I am that god gave my baby boy a chance and I just hope he allows him to continue doing good so he can survive. I’ve thanked everyone that’s prayed for him and gone on huge rants about how god is so good it just upset me that she acted like I’d been nothing but negative and that she was so harsh about it