Still not pregnant

Took 7 months to get pregnant and miscarried in January at 5 weeks. Have now been trying 4 cycles and am still not pregnant. Feeling like I lost my one and only chance at this earlier this year. I’m surrounded by pregnant people and friends with kids and feel so sad I can’t share in that experience. Every negative pregnancy test I take makes me want to go out into my car alone and scream until it hurts.

Now that I’m still not pregnant I’m going for an HSG test this next cycle which I am dreading too. There’s just been no upside to this journey at all. Feels like all the tracking and testing is for nothing.