Please help me. Dark state of mind.

I wish I could put my finger on it,

The small piece of me that doesn’t want to breath.

I shiver in my skin.

As if I’ll never feel alive again.

There’s this part of me that is so dark,

& I have these moments where it almost feels good to fall apart.

Just please, leave me in the dark. I’m getting to where I kind of like this part.

STOP. don’t fast forward.

STOP. don’t rewind.

Am I losing time or am I just loosing my mind.