What’s wrong with me??

Question

I was sexually assaulted awhile ago and since I have I dont know how to describe it but almost a craving to be raped / sexually assulted ? Like I dont know whats wrong with me 😭😭

Answer

I was sexually abused most of my childhood. It affects each individual in different and personal ways. I saw a counselor years later and it really helped. ❤️

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I was abused my whole life and my boyfriend treats me amazingly. I sometimes get angry because he’s so good to me and I’m so used to violence and him being gentle angers me every once in awhile. It’s ok but it definitely takes some getting used to.

Answer

There’s nothing wrong with you. It’s possible you might have a rape/control kink that’s unrelated to your assault. It might be related to your assault. You might be struggling with the loss of control that comes with being sexually violated and fantasizing about it in an attempt to control the situation in your head. 
It’s common. If it’s bothering you, talk to a therapist to help you understand it. Therapy is wonderful for victims of sexual violence. It has helped me immensely.

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I think that’s something normal that can happen... i was in a emotionally and sometimes physically abusive relationship he made me feel like shit just like my dad does and I didn’t feel right talking to or being with someone who doesn’t treat me that way. I know some domestic violence survivors self inflict pain on themselves because they “miss” it from their abuser. It’s all a mental game. Counseling will help i promise. Sometimes it’s just so hard opening up to someone.

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