I’m going to write this anon because I posted a while back asking for help and got shunned because I was considering leaving.

Honestly I was miserable. I had no urge to be physical, I was depressed 99% of the time and I got so overwhelmed trying to raise him that I went into shut down mode and stopped taking care of myself. I stopped fixing my hair, wearing makeup, caring what I wore out, my house is a wreck..

We used to be best friends. He worshipped me and I never had to ask for help because he would already have it done. Then it turned to this.

I’m leaving today. I told him 2 weeks ago I was leaving and he’s been acting like nothing is different. I thought I was worth more to him than that but I guess not.

I’m going with myself and my 2 fur babies who are my world. Starting something new for myself and hopefully starting to love myself again.

Wish me luck..send prayers if you’re the praying type..it’s been rough today as I’m packing everything.

UPDATE- last night was my first night alone. I felt amazing. I went to the store and didn’t have someone calling and texting constantly trying to control when I came home. My fur babies are adjusting great and my 17 year old cat slept in the bed with me for the first time in 4 years. She stopped sleeping with me when my husband starting coming around.

She’s still in the bed sleeping away and I want to just cry at how much I’ve missed her. I’ve had her since she was 6 weeks old and she slept with me every day until 4 years ago.

I’m not living in an apartment. My mom has 2 campers, she does travel nursing and this camper wasn’t suited to her needs and they were going to lose money on it since they hadn’t had it very long and decided to keep it. So I am hooked up to a house with electric and water and sewer and taking over the camper payment while I live here. It’s cozy, small, which is what I wanted. I’m still working on it but it’s going to be nice. Eventually I will have enough saved for an apartment or house. I am excited for what’s ahead. ❤️

This is my older cat, she’s been in the bed since we got here except to eat and potty. I found one of her blankets and she’s been snuggled in since the early am.

My other baby. He’s an incredibly anxious cat but he’s done so well, I’m a proud cat mom

Update 2:

Thank you all so much for your love and support! We are almost one week out and man does it feel amazing. Just going to the store and buying the things I want feels good. I went shopping today and spent over an hour looking and $60 on myself and don’t have to worry about answering to anyone. Things keep coming into my head, reasons why I’m glad I left. My babies are doing wonderful. I am doing wonderful. My mom says she feels like she has her daughter back. Life is good and I am ready. ❤️

Update 3!!!!! I put my name on an apartment today, move in day is mid August! My babies and I are gonna have a real home ❤️

Update 4: god is good. I’m happier every day. I have a steady job, steady income, education, a new car, my fur babies, and my own place in a couple of weeks. It has been a month ladies!! I also decided to show my name on the post. No more anon. Please reach out to me if you are struggling. This is the most humbling and empowering experience I have ever been through and I’ve had a hell of a life..you’re not alone out there 💕

#5! Move in day is tomorrow. Life is good 🥰