(if you have nothing nice to say please do not say anything at all, i beg of you)

feel free to ask any questions if you have any, i will answer if i see the question appropriate.

I’ve never thought of myself as the girl to get pregnant at such a young age because i always thought i was “smarter than that” but i was proven to be VERY wrong. i was slapped in the face by reality like most teenagers do when facing tough situations. i’ve always been extremely careful and vigilant when it came to sex, condoms were always worn and i never trusted the “pull out” method. but of course one of the times i decide to engage in intercourse (with a condom being worn), it slips off during intercourse and neither of us notice. i took a plan b pill 8 hours after the now technically unprotected sex and i thought i’d be OK because i had taken it as late as 36 hours after the incident only once before and i was just fine then. but it seems that i wasn’t as lucky this time. i’m currently enrolled in college studying to be a medical lab technician and as horrible as i feel saying it, i feel as though a child would only hinder my progress. not to mention i am just straight up NOT ready to be a mother yet, or maybe even ever, but definitely not now. i’ve struggled opening up about this to anyone at all really. the only person who knows as of right now is my childhood best friend and i only told him because i learned i needed someone to drive me home after the procedure because i would be heavily sedated. i’ve never been the type to be for or against abortion because every woman knows what is best for them, and i know not everyone thinks like me, which is part of the reason why i am extremely reluctant telling anyone anything about it. i have so many mixed emotions about this but i’m dead set on what i need to do for myself. a condom was worn and plan b was used to try to stop the pregnancy. i know the consequences of sex and understand them, but my partner and i really did try to prevent this from happening. I FEEL extremely ungrateful and like a horrible human being because i see and hear of couples everywhere everyday that struggle to conceive their own children and here i am just aborting mine. and i know adoption is always an option but i don’t think it would be right for my mental or physical health to carry this baby to term, i just know i can’t. at 11 weeks i’m already feeling a step closer and closer to death every day. the father of my child doesn’t know i’m pregnant and i’m going to keep it that way, no matter what anyone says, this is my decision and this is how i will go about it, if it comes back to bite me in the ass, then that’ll be my problem to deal with, no one else’s. if you’re thinking about commenting something rude or judgmental, i bed you to please not. i’ve cried and cried about this for days on end and i know as well as you do how serious and consequential this decision is, but i’ve made it and i’m just asking everyone on here to respect it. i needed to let all this out because i couldn’t hold it in any longer. i have my appointment this coming monday on the 1st of july.