Hey there!

I’ve suffered from from depression and anxiety for years. Mostly triggered by hormonal issues (my birth control did me a dirty) I’ve been off of it for 2 years and never felt better. DH and I recently found out we’re expecting HURRAY!! But what should be a happy time for us is slowly starting to turn into what feels like an isolating pit.. all I want to do is sleep, Infact I feel like I’m sleep walking, I cry at everything and snap on people.. then feel terrible. I have 0 motivation to do anything productive which then makes me feel worse like I’m being a bad partner.. I wake up to eat then go back to sleep and when I try to think all the happy thoughts of holding our little bundle of joy the anxiety takes over with all the thoughts of “what is something bad happens” “miscarriage” “what if I ate the wrong thing” etc etc.. I feel like I’m drowning.. does anyone know if this is normal?? WILL THIS END WITH THE FIRST TRIMESTER... I really hope so ☹️