i’m so sad plz help me

i have been in a relationship for 4 years. i love this guy, we have a house and 3 dogs together BUT we never ever have sex. we never ever do anything sexual. i’ve been eaten out once in 3 month. haven’t had sex in now 8 months. i’m going crazy. i’m so horny. but i love him and see a future w him i don’t know his deal but i’m past the point on trying to figure out what’s wrong w him and wanna start doing me and making myself happy w out hurting him. i’m so horny i wanna fuck a girl so help me am i bad. message me ugh