Unhappily Ever After

I’m so unhappy! It’s mostly my job. It’s so stressful and my boss is a complete asshole! He has ran off 10 of the 14 people we have in our department and no one has batted an eye. I have panic attacks thinking about going to work. Then on top of that my S/O is gone back to being very complacent. His money is not great, he’s not participating with our kids, sex is horrible (he’s drive has increased so that’s a plus). I know he’s not cheating and he is other wise a great guy. I’m just tired of being his mom and always telling him how to do everything! On top of everything, I do have a male friend that is just a friend but I think I’m catching feelings for him. He is in a relationship too but his girlfriend is crazy. We have already discussed that we cannot* leave our current situation for each other.

But I do care for him. He hasn’t told me his true feelings but his actions make it obvious he cares for me more than just friends. The funny things is that I don’t even think it would work out between us if we did try at a relationship, but it’s messing with my head. I’m at a place in my life where I am ready to grow and follow my dreams. I’m so torn.