My fiance and I are officially broken up. I keep trying to get him to speak to a counselor but he won't. We had a really tough pregnancy and I was not able to be the best partner, and I can own that. I really did my best. I didnt expect it to be so hard on me. In my first trimester I slept 12+ hours a day and was so bloated and sick feeling I couldn't manage working and kept getting back to back yeast infections and a UTI. I didn't get a boost of energy in my 2nd trimester and my sex drive did not come back and I developed an allergy to his sperm which we didn't find out until much later which is why when we did have sex it burned and was super uncomfortable. Then would kick start me into another yeast infection. My third trimester i started feeling better by the end but I was in pain when I stood for longer then 15 minutes from sciatic or my lower back. Hell sweeping and dishes caused my back too hurt. I also had sciatic pain through out the entire pregnancy. Fast forward to baby. I was exhausted and in pain and then just plain exhausted and then breast enjoyment fevers (which was probably going on for awhile but I was on pain meds early on). I was supposed to take care of the home and I did my best to make sure there was always food made, his clothes were washed and animals taken care of. I wasn't perfect and I didn't always get it done promptly. I paid bills late accidentally, didnt clean the house and organize it very well, but I loved him unconditionally and kept reminding him it was temporary. I forgot holidays or felt so tired I tried to at least make a nice meal with his favorites and promised a bday 2.0 ( I was3 weeks sleep deprived when his bday came and then fathers day came and I felt better but still tired. He said he just wanted to spend some time alone so I respected it. Now I'm thinking I shouldn't have lol) Sure enough, my sex drive came back at 3 weeks, but I was too exhausted to do too much lol at 8 weeks she is starting to sleep through the night and I'm feeling more and more like myself but he says it's too late. We had other issues arise ( issues with his toxic dad, him gaining weight and not feeling attractive, me not verbalizing enough how much pain I was in PP so he didn't understand, etc.) but nothing I felt like couldn't be solved. He still is physically attracted to me, says we became like best friends and that he feels disconnected then says he loves me but isn't love with me. I know this last year has been financially, emotionally and physically draining for him but what hurts the most is that I know we could get back to a really good place, different but really good. When I started googling how to handle breaking up with a baby, I saw all these posts from women saying my husband felt.xyz ( very similar to what he said) and how they worked through it. I suddenly felt less along and shocked at how common this is. The thing is, I don't know how to fight for us when he has given up. He even asked me if men can get postpartum recently. I'm just so lost and confused. Part of me wants to tell him I'm not going anywhere so suck it up and come to counseling and I'm not going anywhere, I love you and our family. The other part of me wants to just respect that he wants to break up. I'm on a huge rollercoaster. What do i do!? We had the most amazing relationship prior to the pregnancy. I'm willing to put in the work to have him feel supported and loved. I know he felt unloved at times because even kissing and hugging could be too much for me. Like my body as on fire (during pregnancy )Advice is so appreciated. I'm just so heartbroken.