This is a really hard topic to talk about for me but I just found out I was pregnant and I was really shocked my first reaction was no this cannot be happening the test is wrong there’s no way but two more test later and it’s not wrong at first I was open to both choices which were keeping it or getting an abortion I’m completely pro choice and I feel like every woman should have a choice but for me I quickly started steering away from having an abortion and I thought I was 100% sure I was having this baby on Friday I had talked it over with the father and we were both on the same page well Sunday my aunt wanted to talk to me and she felt very strongly about me reconsidering the whole abortion (she supports me either way but wants me to really think my choices threw) and I know she said what she said outta love and I don’t hold any kinda anger at anything towards her and her points were valid I’m not in the most stable position and me and the dad aren’t together I currently live with my aunt and she just felt like it’s a big decision to decided to parent and she felt like I have my whole life to have babies (I’m 22 years old) and she just feels like me and the father just don’t know each other well enough to have a baby which quick back story we met back in January he’s 25 years old and we were just kinda taking things slow we were dating going to the movies going to bars just kinda living carefree as neither one of us have any kids we only had ourselves to worry about we weren’t planning on having a baby but here we are he has a great job has a college degree has his own place and car so for him he feels like yes it’s my choice and he 100% supports either choice I pick as he’s able to care for a child but if I feel like it’s something I don’t want to do he understands and supports that too as for me I’m torn I always wanted to give my kids the world I wanted to be able to have a nice home a good career a husband and have it all well it didn’t work out that way my aunt says having the abortion yea Its gonna be hard and heartbreaking but I’ll get over it and move on but having a baby is a forever thing and I agree my brain completely agrees with what she says but my heart can’t bring myself to do it my heart is telling me I cannot get rid of my baby I cannot go threw that and it makes me super emotional with just the thought of it I already feel so much love for this baby and I know baby’s need more than just love but I’m willing to do everything and anything for this baby I’m willing to give up my freedom my youth my friends the partying for this baby I’m willing to sacrifice so much for this baby and work hard to provide everything he or she needs and wants and to me I much rather do that then do be emotionally lost because other people’s opinions got to me the last thing I wanna do is to get rid of this baby and hold resentment and regret and I’m terrified and I’m scared and I’m sad and I’m angry it’s just so many emotions and I’m really struggling to do what’s best and I know I have to make this decision on my own because it’s my body but this is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do I feel like it has a heartbeat and if I were to go threw with the abortion it will be when I come back from vacation and by then I’ll be over 8 weeks it’s gonna have eyes and limbs I can’t bring myself to do that and I’m not against anyone who has done it everyone’s story and situation is different and again I believe every woman should be able to make there own choices for there bodies but for me this is my first pregnancy and my first baby I’ve helped so many people raise there babies and help them threw there pregnancies and I just feel like I can do that for myself too idk if this sounds selfish idk if I’m thinking about what’s best I’m just having a hard time and could use any and all advice right now