Feeling Alone 😞

I’m about to be in the second trimester of my pregnancy and it’s been extremely hard for me. I had a miscarriage just before conceiving this baby and I don’t know if I really got the chance to grieve or move on. I know deep down I will never get over it I know I will never feel complete again and that’s ok. I don’t know anyone personally that’s been through this so I don’t have anyone to go to for advice. I feel like my friends and family don’t understand how I feel and they always make light of the situation when it’s something that is very real and heavy on my heart. Something that I deal with on a daily basis and even have nightmares about. Some days I can put all feelings aside and just be but I’m never really happy. I feel constantly anxious and worried about what might happen. I have my next appointment in two days and my symptoms have almost disappeared and I know that can be normal for this point in the pregnancy but I still feel scared. It’s taken me months just to get attached to this baby I don’t know how I could continue to live if something ever happened. Trying to stay positive and happy but today is one of those days that it is really hitting hard. I still miss my other baby so much. 😞😞