Feeling down about myself

So I’m up and can’t sleep so I just decided to write this post. I already am very insecure about my body. I’m 5’3 and 225lbs. Today I went to go see my friend I haven’t seen in a while and she had her 20 year old sister with her and I was walking in front of her and she kept asking me where my ass is. I didn’t say anything because I was embarrassed. I left high school because I was getting bullied and sexually assaulted and beat up almost everyday. It felt like such a slap in the face. Then I sit down at the restaurant table with them and she said wow girl u don’t have anything in your life going for you. You don’t have an ass or titties and you can’t have a baby.. I already feel so broken all the time. Anyways here’s my bod try to be nice 🤷🏼‍♀️

Edit——— just wanted to say thanks yall!! Y’all made me cry but In a good way