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I'm 30 weeks pregnant. Lost my job. Cant even pay rent this month. It's my SECOND MONTH HERE. I have my own 2 year old at home and I cant even do doordash or instacart because I have to watch my husbands 2 year old too. His mom never pays child support and shes missed 3 months of payments on the car I'm selling her. I'm tired of living this life. Nothing is EVER going to get better. Every single fucking time I feel like things are looking up I get shit on again. I cant even focus on being happy and taking care of my daughter and on top of that I have to care for his son too. I want to kill myself. I feel like it's my only way out at this point. Maybe my daughter will do better if she just goes to live with another family member. I haven't told anyone how I feel because I'm scared. I don't have the energy to try to improve things anymore.