Praying this month is it

I’m really trying to be positive this month I’m in my fertile window and we both seem in the right frame of mind. Not putting any pressure on each other.

I feel different this month to others, I felt too controlling and panicky but this month I kind of feel like this is going to be the one.

I’m basically already thinking that we’ll def get a positive but now I’m writing this I think am I being really dumb because the disappointment could be worse if it doesn’t happen.

Sorry not really a question just needed somewhere to air my thoughts