Coexisting feelings...

This is not gender disappointment. I'm so in love with my boy already. But, I'm currently also grieving the fact that I'll never have a girl. We don't want more than two children and we already have a boy. He's the love of my life and I know I'll love the next one equally.

However, I always pictured myself having a girl... going clothes shopping with her, giving her pretty hairdos, playing with dolls like I used to play with my mum... I have jewellery that belonged to me when I was a little girl that I always imagined I would pass on to my little girl...

I know I'll be happy with my boys and I feel so incredibly blessed for everything I have in my life.

I guess I'm just looking for some kind words or similar experiences/shared feelings to help me process.